Tension 30 minit~ huhu...

kadang-kadang, orang yang paling kita sayang, yang paling dekat dengan kita, yang paling kita harapkan perhatian dari dia, turns out to be seorang yang selalu menyakitkan hati. kenapa ek? is that so difficult untuk cakap elok-elok? i mean without menghamburkan all those words yang betul-betul menyakitkan hati. what u said earlier, that was so mean!!this is not the first time. almost 10 thousand times.

you don't even know your sis very well. if one day i ask u to describe me in 10 words, i am pretty sure u will list all bad things about me. sebab memang kamu tak pernah nampak the other side of me. for u i am a bad girl. ape yang aku buat semua salah. tak pernah ada yang betul. since you have your own life, u changed. A LOT. kamu lebih bahagia sekarang. i'm happy for you but since that i've lost my very bestfriend. hmm..bukan mahu jadi kebudak-budakan tapi day after day the hatred keeps growing up inside me. i miss the old you. but what's the point missing the past. it's killing me. well, ya..its true, you will find only pain living in the past. so just forget the past. live life to the fullest. tak berbaloi bersedih kerana kamu.

saya bukan mahu mintak banyak dari kamu. hanya satu. saya cuma mahu kamu tidak hanya mendengar penjelasan dari sebelah pihak. i have nobody besides me if u keep blaming me this and that. alangkah bagus kalau saya ada adik beradik yang lain. but its ok, saya patut bersyukur ada kamu. at least Allah gave me a BROTHER once. long time ago. yang selalu menjaga saya. yang sanggup buat apa saja untuk buat saya berhenti menangis.

whatever la. i just wanna be happy. sebab hidup hanya sekali. hey! why so sad. wipe your tears. throw him away for a while.

i'm sorry i post it in my blog. if u read this, i just want you to know that i love you so much. sbb tu sy terasa sgt bila kamu selalu marah sy, put the blame on me. kerana saya hanya ada kamu.